Late Night Hystories

ok here i am back again and not to the post thing but to the way i feel. is been a while since all this is happenig and i really dont see the end of it, while the only think i need is just to feel usefull and love, your needs seems to be others, and i know you have told me you have your needs of time, of space for yourself, but is there where my needs also come and they dont show up on yours, and i also know you have told me before that i dont have to feel this way but i really can't help feeling like this, and by this i mean feeling lonely, sad and careless, your need of goin out every weekend only makes me feel like i am the worts person on earth to be with,to hang out to the movies, to have a drink with, but im sorry is the way i feel it, and i know im not asking too much really than quality time more than just time with you, but you still make me understand it this way. Im sorry if all this situation is making you feel bad or that your needs are different than mine, but i also need you to understand me, for what all that we have been trough and that if we really want this marriage to be save i think you really need to make an efford for it or for me is there is still something to be save it. Im gonna quit this post right now because my head is all mess up and because all i have wrote before got erase it and it was so much better explain it than this one.